Content In Whatever Situation
As you know, school is out for me, until August. This is the first time since I was 19 that I haven't had to go to work. This begins a new phase in life, staying at home, taking care of the house, running around with friends and relaxing. I think that the Lord wants me to learn how to be content in whatever state I am in.
After 27 years of getting up around 3:45 to 4:30 AM, it is a pleasure to sleep til 6:15 AM. I get Matt off to work and sometimes I turn the TV up and go back to bed and listen to TD Jakes, Joyce Meyer and others. If I don't go back to bed I read, work on projects, like the radio broadcast for our church, during school, I had homework to finish up. There is always something to do. I don't feel guilty about it either. I have paid my dues to the working world, it's time to rest up and see what God has in store for me.
Something happened in December and January. I would apply for job, because I was receiving unemployment. I would make an inquiry, and sometimes when they saw my work history, they figured I was too old, or couldn't do the job, so I would get one of the dear john employment letters. It basically said "you don't fit our needs at this time, we are moving forward to more qualified applicants". I had several phone interviews and the same thing happened. I decided to file for disability. I have a disability and have had one all of my life. It was a source of pride to me to be able to work as long as I did with the vision that I have.
Applying for disability isn't easy, and you leave your pride behind. The function report is the most humiliating thing that you have to fill out. I had someone who worked in the system help me. I have had two cornea transplants. It didn't take long to get disability. There were so many people praying for me. It was a scary time.
We walked by faith, because it takes two incomes to live on now. For the first time since I was 19 I wasn't bringing in any income at all. When you file for disability, your unemployment stops. We had to ask the church and family for help. I thought that I would get more help than I got from people, it didn't happen. I really had to depend on God. Some amazing things did happen though. My docter didn't charge me for office visits, some of the more expensive medications I was on, I got samples and the others were wrote as generics and were on the four dollar list, or a three month's supply for ten dollars. I still had to buy eye drops, which were $37.00 without insurance, but I was able to get those. The day I was ready to go to the DHHR to see if I could get anything, I got a call and they said my disability was approved. It was on the way. Praise God !!! We were trying to figure out ways to get extra income, but nothing materialized.
One of my friends who told me to go ahead and file for my disability said that it was freedom. Now I understand what she was saying. I can work if I want to do something part time, or not. Last winter when we had some really bad snow storms, I would look out the living room window and praise God that I din't have to get out in the snow. There are days I don't leave the house and I love it. I was walking through the house yesterday, remembering about this time last year, I was envying people that didn't have to work. They were retired, or disabled and didn't have to be in the rat race. God fixed it where I could be one of them.
I enjoy school and going to church. I am retraining to do something else. For the time being I am enjoying this stage in my life. I don't know what is around the corner. I know that God is ordering my steps. Going through the process of change is hard, but God is faithful.
After 27 years of getting up around 3:45 to 4:30 AM, it is a pleasure to sleep til 6:15 AM. I get Matt off to work and sometimes I turn the TV up and go back to bed and listen to TD Jakes, Joyce Meyer and others. If I don't go back to bed I read, work on projects, like the radio broadcast for our church, during school, I had homework to finish up. There is always something to do. I don't feel guilty about it either. I have paid my dues to the working world, it's time to rest up and see what God has in store for me.
Something happened in December and January. I would apply for job, because I was receiving unemployment. I would make an inquiry, and sometimes when they saw my work history, they figured I was too old, or couldn't do the job, so I would get one of the dear john employment letters. It basically said "you don't fit our needs at this time, we are moving forward to more qualified applicants". I had several phone interviews and the same thing happened. I decided to file for disability. I have a disability and have had one all of my life. It was a source of pride to me to be able to work as long as I did with the vision that I have.
Applying for disability isn't easy, and you leave your pride behind. The function report is the most humiliating thing that you have to fill out. I had someone who worked in the system help me. I have had two cornea transplants. It didn't take long to get disability. There were so many people praying for me. It was a scary time.
We walked by faith, because it takes two incomes to live on now. For the first time since I was 19 I wasn't bringing in any income at all. When you file for disability, your unemployment stops. We had to ask the church and family for help. I thought that I would get more help than I got from people, it didn't happen. I really had to depend on God. Some amazing things did happen though. My docter didn't charge me for office visits, some of the more expensive medications I was on, I got samples and the others were wrote as generics and were on the four dollar list, or a three month's supply for ten dollars. I still had to buy eye drops, which were $37.00 without insurance, but I was able to get those. The day I was ready to go to the DHHR to see if I could get anything, I got a call and they said my disability was approved. It was on the way. Praise God !!! We were trying to figure out ways to get extra income, but nothing materialized.
One of my friends who told me to go ahead and file for my disability said that it was freedom. Now I understand what she was saying. I can work if I want to do something part time, or not. Last winter when we had some really bad snow storms, I would look out the living room window and praise God that I din't have to get out in the snow. There are days I don't leave the house and I love it. I was walking through the house yesterday, remembering about this time last year, I was envying people that didn't have to work. They were retired, or disabled and didn't have to be in the rat race. God fixed it where I could be one of them.
I enjoy school and going to church. I am retraining to do something else. For the time being I am enjoying this stage in my life. I don't know what is around the corner. I know that God is ordering my steps. Going through the process of change is hard, but God is faithful.
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