Where do I start????
This was my first official week back at work. So many things happened to me this week. I have to stop and catch my breath to be able to grasp it all. God can do more than we could ever ask or think. When I heard that WJLS was sold to West Virginia Radio Corporation, I was happy. There was no covering that fact up. The previous company basically ran it into the ground, they took all of the money they could and didn't invest any back into the business until they had to. I had to forgive them for what they did, it was hard, but after, the day I was praying and telling the Lord how they treated me, and the Lord asked me then, did they beat you, did the crucify you, I said well no Lord and the Lord said they did all of what they did to you they did it to me and much worse. Well when I heard that what could I say, I had to forgive them. As hard as it was I was obedient to the Lord.
As I said when I heard about the sale of the station, people would ask me "Are they going to call you back to work?" My response was always," we will see what God says about that". I was wanting them to call me, but I didn't dare tell anyone. I finally told my sister , because sisters can share things that no one else can share. My dad told me don't expect to go back to work and Sharon told him, "You know that's her heart". Then I went through the worst depression I have had in a long time. It was as if the hounds of hell were on my heels. There were thoughts about school and all I was doing, saying it was no use no one wanted to be bothered with me. I even asked around school about jobs. No one knew of anything, and here I am studying to be an accountant. I came very close to not even enrolling in school for the spring, but I was reminded that I had been given a second chance, I had to finish what I started. Sharon told me to send the people a message on facebook, or an email. I started to do that and God said that if they want you they will call you. I got a call about Randy and I was so shocked , then I regretted that I didn't call him. It was that the company that used to own the station pitted people against each other and made it hard to talk to people that still worked there. I was sitting here at the computer working on some schoolwork when I got the call that they wanted to meet with me.
I asked for prayer, because I wanted to make sure that I didn't overide the will of God for my life. Sometimes God gives us what we want to let us know we didn't need it. You know how sometimes when your kids cry and whine for something for so long, you give it to them to make them shut up. I had been through this experience once and didn't want to experience it again. People would tell me you will know when you go into that meeting. Well I was nervous. Matt said don't feel like you have to take the job, you don't. Sharon had told my dad and he wanted to drive me to the interview. I told him it would be an hour and he went back home. As I climbed the 32 steps to the station, I wasn't sure what I would say. As I met with the manager, I went into the office, where I had been chewed out by the previous manager. He told me that they wanted someone to rebuild the AM station. No one knew it as well as I did. We talked a bit and I knew that I had to give this a try. He wasn't putting downthe people who worked there, they did the best they could under the previous management. The only thing management cared about was as long as the preachers paid for their radio time, anything else wasn't all that important.
As I talked to them I explained I was still in school and because I was on disability I had to work within the parameters of Social Security. I said that maybe I would end up coming off of it, but I needed it at the present time. So they said that they would talk and work it out. So the next day they called and had worked out a schedule that we both could live with. I came up that Friday to start training. I was surprised at how much I remembered. This first week was a little nerve-wracking, because I was nervous and trying to get everything done in the hours that I had. With it being Christmas, this required putting in Christmas music, and special programs. This kept me busy for several days. The challange comes with the new year as I learn where the music is and how to do the play list, ect. I was putting in music on the other day and one of my favorite Christmas songs came on, tears began to run down my face as I felt the Holy Spirit and realized that God had answered a secret prayer. I didn't want that last few years at WJLS to be my last work experience...
As I start this new venture. I am ever mindful of the stresses and challanges that it will be. I need your prayers. I am not sure where to start. My dad said don't go in being a know-it-all. I thought as he said that, I don't know anything. I am going to have to relearn some of the music and figure out where Randy left off. People tell me he had plans for the station. I look around the control room, there are notes that he made, expecting to come to work the next day. With the new ownership we will eventually get new equipment and different things that will make the job easier and I look forward to learning. Pray that I will do what God wants, as far as my own personal ambitions, I am there to help, not carve out a career for myself. I am the Lord's servant.....
As I said when I heard about the sale of the station, people would ask me "Are they going to call you back to work?" My response was always," we will see what God says about that". I was wanting them to call me, but I didn't dare tell anyone. I finally told my sister , because sisters can share things that no one else can share. My dad told me don't expect to go back to work and Sharon told him, "You know that's her heart". Then I went through the worst depression I have had in a long time. It was as if the hounds of hell were on my heels. There were thoughts about school and all I was doing, saying it was no use no one wanted to be bothered with me. I even asked around school about jobs. No one knew of anything, and here I am studying to be an accountant. I came very close to not even enrolling in school for the spring, but I was reminded that I had been given a second chance, I had to finish what I started. Sharon told me to send the people a message on facebook, or an email. I started to do that and God said that if they want you they will call you. I got a call about Randy and I was so shocked , then I regretted that I didn't call him. It was that the company that used to own the station pitted people against each other and made it hard to talk to people that still worked there. I was sitting here at the computer working on some schoolwork when I got the call that they wanted to meet with me.
I asked for prayer, because I wanted to make sure that I didn't overide the will of God for my life. Sometimes God gives us what we want to let us know we didn't need it. You know how sometimes when your kids cry and whine for something for so long, you give it to them to make them shut up. I had been through this experience once and didn't want to experience it again. People would tell me you will know when you go into that meeting. Well I was nervous. Matt said don't feel like you have to take the job, you don't. Sharon had told my dad and he wanted to drive me to the interview. I told him it would be an hour and he went back home. As I climbed the 32 steps to the station, I wasn't sure what I would say. As I met with the manager, I went into the office, where I had been chewed out by the previous manager. He told me that they wanted someone to rebuild the AM station. No one knew it as well as I did. We talked a bit and I knew that I had to give this a try. He wasn't putting downthe people who worked there, they did the best they could under the previous management. The only thing management cared about was as long as the preachers paid for their radio time, anything else wasn't all that important.
As I talked to them I explained I was still in school and because I was on disability I had to work within the parameters of Social Security. I said that maybe I would end up coming off of it, but I needed it at the present time. So they said that they would talk and work it out. So the next day they called and had worked out a schedule that we both could live with. I came up that Friday to start training. I was surprised at how much I remembered. This first week was a little nerve-wracking, because I was nervous and trying to get everything done in the hours that I had. With it being Christmas, this required putting in Christmas music, and special programs. This kept me busy for several days. The challange comes with the new year as I learn where the music is and how to do the play list, ect. I was putting in music on the other day and one of my favorite Christmas songs came on, tears began to run down my face as I felt the Holy Spirit and realized that God had answered a secret prayer. I didn't want that last few years at WJLS to be my last work experience...
As I start this new venture. I am ever mindful of the stresses and challanges that it will be. I need your prayers. I am not sure where to start. My dad said don't go in being a know-it-all. I thought as he said that, I don't know anything. I am going to have to relearn some of the music and figure out where Randy left off. People tell me he had plans for the station. I look around the control room, there are notes that he made, expecting to come to work the next day. With the new ownership we will eventually get new equipment and different things that will make the job easier and I look forward to learning. Pray that I will do what God wants, as far as my own personal ambitions, I am there to help, not carve out a career for myself. I am the Lord's servant.....
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