The Return
Today I went back to WJLS to do the broadcast "Sword of Victory" the program Bishop Simms started over 20 years ago. I am not really sure why I had to do it. Maybe it was God wanting me to face my fears. I'm not sure. I do know when I was asked to do it, my reaction was anger more than anything else. I really DID NOT want to go up to WJLS. Some people said I shouldn't be angry, but I was because I thought it showed a lack of respect for me expecting me to go back to a place I used to work. Then Matt said, well you know that Bishop doesn't ask just anybody to do that broadcast, so I said OK, If they can't find anyone esle to do it I will. I really don't like to say no to our pastor. He has a lot on him pastoring our church and being third in the chain of command in the organization we are in, plus him and his wife have aging mothers and they also have five daughters. So I said OK I will do this. I just didn't want any trouble from the WJLS people. I was there as a broadcaster representing Heart Of God Ministries and more importantly the Lord.
I went through all of the emotions. Bishop preached this morning on "From Fear to Faith". I had all the emotions between the two. Matt and I started working on the program, he on his computer and me with my computer and box of CD's and my Bibles. I kept thinking about Psalms 91, it is one of my favorite scriptures. When I moved here, some of the time I was alone. My mom stayed here some nights, but when she didn't I would read this Psalm befroe going to sleep and I would sleep with the Bible open to it. I was reading it in my study room and Matt was reading it downstairs, we picked the song "He's A Battle Axe". I went downstairs and it was playing and he said, I kept hearing the word "Shelter" so I looked this song up and of course I told him I did the same thing. Then he played another song, "My name is victory", I have that somewhere here, but I couldn't find it and he said I'll get it on youtube. The next selection was the "Battle Hymn of the Republic" I knew that there a version by the Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir. I picked that for the honoring our fire fighters, police and first responders as well as our military. Since Matt is retired military and a Desert Storm vet, I asked him to pray. There is a song that Tye Tribbet does that I heard on CBN Radio called "Keep Me'. I thought this would be a well rounded list of songs. Matt put them on one CD. I wrote the script. When i write a script I don't read it word for word, but I thought that this would be better for me ,so I would stay on point.
Last night was a restless night. I was concerned about the CD player in the control room working, being able to hear the speaker in studio B. I was wondering if the person working would be there and if I would be able to get in. I know how that place runs so I was concerned. We left the house at 7:18AM and got there in about five minutes, because there is no traffic at 7:30AM Sunday morning./ They have painted the place. Sharon had told me that as well as others a bright red. Everything else still looked the same. They had put in new carpet and paint, but the spirit there is very sufficating. They used to brag about how much better they were than the competetion,. Southern Communications, not anymore. Since I have done the broadcast at both places I like doing the radio program at Southern Communications better. When you go in there, they have coffee brewing, a soda machine and water cooler. They rotate their staff for Sunday mornings, so you get someone who knows what they are doing and they say things like, "I'm going to get some coffee, can I get you anything". That makes a difference. The studio, you are right in with the announcer and, there is a clock where you can time yourself and a cough switch so if you start coughing when you talk you can mute it. Randy had done a good job in that respect.
Like I said in an earlier post , I am not sure if I will work in radio again. I see somethings now. If God hadn't of taken me out of that situation, I would have had a nervous breakdown or a stroke. I went into the control room and it was if time had stopped. All they want was workerbe people, no one with any spunk or to be creative, they just want people to push buttons., and do what they are told. Most of the people there haven't been trained all that well, and they don't know how to use the equipment. Things get messed up and no one cares. That was my problem I cared too much. I don't really know how I fought that spiritual battle for so long. I know God was with me. This morning I got up and read in Joshua and then I prayed and anointed myself and went in Jesus Name. It was an experience. I am not sure what will come of it, but it was an experience.....
This reminds me of an old Mike Payne song, "There has been a change in me, I am not the one I used to be, Old things are past and now I've been set free, there a change a change in me" So this morning at church I was praising the Lord and had to dance across the church. I went to the enemy's camp and I took back what he stole from me, hes under my feet satan is under my feet. Do not fear what man can do to you look neither to the left or right, go on in Jeus Name.
I went through all of the emotions. Bishop preached this morning on "From Fear to Faith". I had all the emotions between the two. Matt and I started working on the program, he on his computer and me with my computer and box of CD's and my Bibles. I kept thinking about Psalms 91, it is one of my favorite scriptures. When I moved here, some of the time I was alone. My mom stayed here some nights, but when she didn't I would read this Psalm befroe going to sleep and I would sleep with the Bible open to it. I was reading it in my study room and Matt was reading it downstairs, we picked the song "He's A Battle Axe". I went downstairs and it was playing and he said, I kept hearing the word "Shelter" so I looked this song up and of course I told him I did the same thing. Then he played another song, "My name is victory", I have that somewhere here, but I couldn't find it and he said I'll get it on youtube. The next selection was the "Battle Hymn of the Republic" I knew that there a version by the Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir. I picked that for the honoring our fire fighters, police and first responders as well as our military. Since Matt is retired military and a Desert Storm vet, I asked him to pray. There is a song that Tye Tribbet does that I heard on CBN Radio called "Keep Me'. I thought this would be a well rounded list of songs. Matt put them on one CD. I wrote the script. When i write a script I don't read it word for word, but I thought that this would be better for me ,so I would stay on point.
Last night was a restless night. I was concerned about the CD player in the control room working, being able to hear the speaker in studio B. I was wondering if the person working would be there and if I would be able to get in. I know how that place runs so I was concerned. We left the house at 7:18AM and got there in about five minutes, because there is no traffic at 7:30AM Sunday morning./ They have painted the place. Sharon had told me that as well as others a bright red. Everything else still looked the same. They had put in new carpet and paint, but the spirit there is very sufficating. They used to brag about how much better they were than the competetion,. Southern Communications, not anymore. Since I have done the broadcast at both places I like doing the radio program at Southern Communications better. When you go in there, they have coffee brewing, a soda machine and water cooler. They rotate their staff for Sunday mornings, so you get someone who knows what they are doing and they say things like, "I'm going to get some coffee, can I get you anything". That makes a difference. The studio, you are right in with the announcer and, there is a clock where you can time yourself and a cough switch so if you start coughing when you talk you can mute it. Randy had done a good job in that respect.
Like I said in an earlier post , I am not sure if I will work in radio again. I see somethings now. If God hadn't of taken me out of that situation, I would have had a nervous breakdown or a stroke. I went into the control room and it was if time had stopped. All they want was workerbe people, no one with any spunk or to be creative, they just want people to push buttons., and do what they are told. Most of the people there haven't been trained all that well, and they don't know how to use the equipment. Things get messed up and no one cares. That was my problem I cared too much. I don't really know how I fought that spiritual battle for so long. I know God was with me. This morning I got up and read in Joshua and then I prayed and anointed myself and went in Jesus Name. It was an experience. I am not sure what will come of it, but it was an experience.....
This reminds me of an old Mike Payne song, "There has been a change in me, I am not the one I used to be, Old things are past and now I've been set free, there a change a change in me" So this morning at church I was praising the Lord and had to dance across the church. I went to the enemy's camp and I took back what he stole from me, hes under my feet satan is under my feet. Do not fear what man can do to you look neither to the left or right, go on in Jeus Name.
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