New Beginnings

The month of August will be here in a few days. I have a little fear and trembling about August.  It is the eight month in the year. A lot of important things has happened to me in the month of August. Some good, some bad. In August 1987 , the Lord gave me the house I am currently living in. If I would have lived by His principles it would have been paid off by now, but I listened to others when things got tight and refinanced it. Lord forgive me for taking such a gift and being short sighted with it.  This was during the time I was trying to "have it All". If I couldn't pay cash, there was plastic.  Got in trouble with the plastic. In August 1997 Matt and I startted seeing each other. Now this had been building for about a year or so. Matt, bless his heart is a good man, but extremely dense.  We were friends for over a year and so finally I got frustrated at him beng so dense I finally asked him to come over and we needed to talk. We worked together and I didn't...

To forgive is to grant pardon for an offense. It doesn't mean that the offense didn't happen or it didn't hurt you. It means that you release the person from the hurt or the offense that has been directed toward you or a loved one.  This takes the power of the Holy Ghost. It is hard in the natural to forgive others, because you want them to pay for what they have done to you.  It is not up to you to execute vengence upon those who hurt you or your loved one, it is God's job. My dad is struggling with unforgivness at the moment. When we talked yesterday, I tried to explain to him that unforgivness hurts him more than the person or persons he is harboring these feelings toward. As I said in one of my blogs, my dad is an old school man, he doesn't understand how a man could walk away from his kids, because they turned 18. He didn't understand the mental abuse toward my sister inflicted on her by her ex-husband. There is no understanding this. All I can say is tha...

I hate discussing politics.  People are very passionate about what they believe. I have seen people almost come to blows over being a Democrat or Republican.  I have friends on both sides.  I see their views to a point. I, at this time, am not loyal to either party. Both sides need to sit down and do something before the country defaults on its loans to China. If this keeps up we will be learning Chinese as the country's official language. Charlie Rangle was on TV last week asking What Would Jesus Do? I thought this was rather strange considering that everybody spouts seperation of church and state. Which by they way is not in the U.S. Constitution. It is a letter that Thomas Jefferson wrote. They have almost removed all references of God out of the public venues. They have forbidden military chaplins to pray in the name of Jesus. Now they want to know what would Jesus do?  First of all we wouldn't have 14 trillion dollar debt. The church is supposed to take care o...

I am still basking in the freedom and the worship of the "Igniting New Life" convention. It was the first one I've ever attended. I went there seeking direction. I come back with a new attitude, one of worship. What I got from the convention was that I needed to worship more and worry less.  Worship is when you come before the Lord in reverence, worshiping Him for who He is, Lord of our lives, Savior, King of Kings, our Redeemer Lord, in His presence. We worship not for what He does for us but for who He is.  For some reason, we get this all turned around... I need to be free in my worship. When in service at the convention, people were waving flags, and banners, if they had a dance, they did, danced before the Lord.  Nobody thought you were strange, we were just worshiping.. There was a song we sang. I had heard this two or three years ago and it says."Push back the darkness, break down the walls, in the Name of Jesus, these chains are gonna fall".... There i...

This is a strange title for this blog. I thought of this yesterday when Sharon called me.  My sister called me yesterday morning and was telling me what went on at Family Worship Center the night before.  Rod Parsley was there. I thought about going, I might have called around to see who was going and catch a ride with someone. I was sitting here Monday night and one of the ministers who does the nursing home ministry called me to ask if I would minister at the nursing home. The nursing home ministrty is important. The residents can't get out to church, chuches come in and do services there. They are a blessing to those who come. Plus you get blessed by watching them get blessed.  My message was OK. More encouraging then anything.  God doesn't see as man see, Man looks on the outward appearence God looks at the heart. He sees our hearts, He knows our motives ....We had a good time. I was just thankful that God used me.,...Sharon called Tuesday morning and was ...

Are you one of the ladies in my age group who were in their 20's and read Helen Gurly Brown's " Having It All "? I admit to reading such nonsense. Well, when you are in your 20's and working on your career and in college, you are very idealistic. This was also during the time I said I wanted to own the radio station.   I was an ambitious sort back then. I got books on management, read articles, sunscribed to "Working Woman" magazine. I carried a brief case, dressed  the part. You know what I got... nowhere at all. I took the Dale Carnegie course.  The prinicples didn't work. The folks I worked with also took the Sam Carnegie course. (smile) Anyway reading this book "Having It All" a woman was supposed to have a career, husband and family and all that it involves. It is possible to have it all, but not at the same time.  A lot of women found this out the hard way, they concentrated on a career in their 20's, by the time they hit 30, t...

This morning I was looking at my morning TV programs. They have been used to get me though those early days when I hurt so bad I didn't know what to do. I knew God was in charge of my situation, but it hurt that people I cared about and helped turned their back on me. I turned to TV ministries for confort. This morning the messages were all headed in the same direction. Lady Serita Jakes was talking about it has been 15 years since the move from West Virginia, to Dallas Texas to the mega ministry that they have now. Bishop Jakes was preaching about their first chuch. Later Joyce Meyer talked about her early days in ministry, so did Creflo Dollar. I guess God wanted to remind me, not to despise the days of small beginnings. I was telling Matt last night that a post from someone I had helped train many years ago touched me. He said that I had an impact on people. I thought to myself "How in the world can I have an impact on people? I am not out that much, my blogging is done on ...

Sheri Easter has been on Joni Lamb's show on the Daystar network.  She was talking about her battle with cancer and how she has been cancer free for three years. I celebrate with her.  Cancer is a horrible disease. There are so many types of it and some kinds are operable and others all they can do is treat it. When you see Sheri Easter in concert as I did two years ago, she looks the same except in the eyes. I saw the same thing when my mom was in remisson.  It was the look of having been through something undescrible , but somehow surviving it. While my mom went through her cancer treatments, I learned to praise God for the things we take for granted. Like waking up in the morning in your right mind.  We take that for granted, that when we wake up, we know where we are and we know where the bathroom is and we know what to do when we get there.  I had to watch my mom wake up not knowing where she was, she accused my dad of poisoning her, she couldn't find th...