What do I do with this or about this??
I just got back from a doctors office from a checkup. Everything is physically fine, but mentally that is another story. I had two people who heard my voice ask me didn't I used to be on the radio. One of the nurses began to tell me how much she enjoyed listening in the mornings. She thought that I had retired. I did mornings for 27 years. It was fun, but toward the end, my health problems began to take over and it got hard to do. I would have had to quit anyway, because my health was getting worse. I have so many memories. I have tried to move on, but no one will let me. I look at people like Shirley Temple, who in her life accomplished many things, besides being the cute little girl who set box office record back in the 1930's. What a tragedy if she wasn't allowed to move on.
As for me, I am back on the radio doing something a little different mainly behind the scenes. When I did "Joy in the Morning" that was for a season. That season ended in 2010 for me. When I started back to work in December 2012, I knew things would be different. New owners different management, but yet still exciting for me. Most of my work is behind the scenes now working with the computer, interviewing people, there are times I think back to the people I have met, the events I helped with and planned and I asked the Lord, what do I do with all of this. Do I just put it in my experience bank and never use it again. Do question becomes what do I do with all of this. I believe that all of our experiences in life prepare us for the next step in life. I am not sure what that is yet.
Sharon, says that God has me in a holding pattern. God is healing me from some of the hurts and disappointments that went along with the transition from full time worker to a full time student. Now my student role is almost over, I ask myself what is my next step? When God has you in a holding pattern you keep doing the last thing that God has instructed you to do. I know this particular one is for a reason. With me not working full time, I was able to care for Matt doing all of those difficult days following his surgeries. I look back on that and I very thankful to work for people who are concerned and didn't hassle me since I was part time.
With my student status coming to an end, I wanted to use what I have learned in college. I am already using some of it. I am glad to have upgraded my skill, so that I am not easily intimidated by things I don't understand. I have had to ask for help. I just didn't want to get stuck in a mindset or become stagnant in my growth. I am used to learning new things and revisiting some of the old ways of thinking and renewing my mind. I still ask and struggle with what do I do with all of that experience, do I just think of it as a good memory. I don't want to get stuck in the past reliving my glory days. Truthfully speaking, some of those days weren't so glorious. Some were hard, some were lonely and some days I just didn't feel well. Matt and I were talking about things this evening and he says that I appear more confident than I used to be. I speak out concerning a lot of things. Things are evolving and I am coming into the person that God wants me to be. I just struggle when people say things like how much they used to listen and enjoy me. Part of me wonders what to do with this and how to process the information. Then another part of me wants to move forward as in the song from Israel & New Breed that talks about not looking back, looking ahead God making all things new.
I know that God has a plan for me and will reveal it in His own time. I will just wait until He lets me know what the next step is.
As for me, I am back on the radio doing something a little different mainly behind the scenes. When I did "Joy in the Morning" that was for a season. That season ended in 2010 for me. When I started back to work in December 2012, I knew things would be different. New owners different management, but yet still exciting for me. Most of my work is behind the scenes now working with the computer, interviewing people, there are times I think back to the people I have met, the events I helped with and planned and I asked the Lord, what do I do with all of this. Do I just put it in my experience bank and never use it again. Do question becomes what do I do with all of this. I believe that all of our experiences in life prepare us for the next step in life. I am not sure what that is yet.
Sharon, says that God has me in a holding pattern. God is healing me from some of the hurts and disappointments that went along with the transition from full time worker to a full time student. Now my student role is almost over, I ask myself what is my next step? When God has you in a holding pattern you keep doing the last thing that God has instructed you to do. I know this particular one is for a reason. With me not working full time, I was able to care for Matt doing all of those difficult days following his surgeries. I look back on that and I very thankful to work for people who are concerned and didn't hassle me since I was part time.
With my student status coming to an end, I wanted to use what I have learned in college. I am already using some of it. I am glad to have upgraded my skill, so that I am not easily intimidated by things I don't understand. I have had to ask for help. I just didn't want to get stuck in a mindset or become stagnant in my growth. I am used to learning new things and revisiting some of the old ways of thinking and renewing my mind. I still ask and struggle with what do I do with all of that experience, do I just think of it as a good memory. I don't want to get stuck in the past reliving my glory days. Truthfully speaking, some of those days weren't so glorious. Some were hard, some were lonely and some days I just didn't feel well. Matt and I were talking about things this evening and he says that I appear more confident than I used to be. I speak out concerning a lot of things. Things are evolving and I am coming into the person that God wants me to be. I just struggle when people say things like how much they used to listen and enjoy me. Part of me wonders what to do with this and how to process the information. Then another part of me wants to move forward as in the song from Israel & New Breed that talks about not looking back, looking ahead God making all things new.
I know that God has a plan for me and will reveal it in His own time. I will just wait until He lets me know what the next step is.
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