I don't look like what I have been through
There is a gospel song that I heard sang at church, "I don't look like what I have been through".. Thank God for that. The last five months have been a whirlwind of doctors appointments, surgeries, hospital bills ect, Matt says he does look like what he has been through. I was telling him, he really didn't. Right now he may move a little slower and get tired easy, but he is still recovering. In the old days a person didn't receive two major surgeries like he had in a period of 10 weeks. It just wasn't done. You were out of commission for a long time. In the hospital for two weeks , at home on bed rest for awhile. Colon type surgeries were permanent, they did a colostamy and that was it. You learned to live with it. Now they have something called a "J pouch" They have been doing that type of surgery since the 1990's. He is doing very well. I'm glad I don't look like what I have been throuigh either.
As a wife what effects your husband effects you too. I feel like I have aged 20 years. I think both of us are still shell shocked. Walking through those first days of surery after Matt got home, Those days were quite an experience. Matt had never been sick or had any type of serious illness simnce he was a teenager. So this was hard for him. I keep reminding him that since he was healthy, the surgeries weren't as hard on him as they are some people. There was a lot of prayer going up for him. I know some people think that prayer and religion are a crutch, but when you are going through something like that you need something in this case Someone to lean on. I was leaning on the everlasting arms of Jesus. There was no where else to go.
God sent people our way to help us. Since I can't drive, people from church took me to work and to the store. They came by and helped me with Matt. Someone even fixed a meal for us. I went from cooking maybe three times a week to fixing three meals a day. Matt had to eat three meals at day at least. I had to try to fix something for both of us. I am a diabetic and my diet was opposite from the one he needed. He had to have carbs, bread potatoes, cheese and things like that. I needed fruits and veggies. It was quire a balancing act at time. I learned to fix the carbs he needed and then fix a salad for me. I would eat with him, I would just eat a little differently from him.
I can see improvement each day. I call them "baby steps", the progress may be slower than what Matt thinks, but he has been through a lot. I am just thankful that he has made it through without any major complications. The things that we were going through were adjustments to a new normal. God has given us much grace and strength to get through all of this. I was writing a paper for the discussion board from my class "The Philosophy of Leadership", and one of the points of being a good leader is "Courage". I have always had a certain amount of courage, but until recently , I didn't know how much courage and strength I had and I am glad I don't look like what I have been through.
As a wife what effects your husband effects you too. I feel like I have aged 20 years. I think both of us are still shell shocked. Walking through those first days of surery after Matt got home, Those days were quite an experience. Matt had never been sick or had any type of serious illness simnce he was a teenager. So this was hard for him. I keep reminding him that since he was healthy, the surgeries weren't as hard on him as they are some people. There was a lot of prayer going up for him. I know some people think that prayer and religion are a crutch, but when you are going through something like that you need something in this case Someone to lean on. I was leaning on the everlasting arms of Jesus. There was no where else to go.
God sent people our way to help us. Since I can't drive, people from church took me to work and to the store. They came by and helped me with Matt. Someone even fixed a meal for us. I went from cooking maybe three times a week to fixing three meals a day. Matt had to eat three meals at day at least. I had to try to fix something for both of us. I am a diabetic and my diet was opposite from the one he needed. He had to have carbs, bread potatoes, cheese and things like that. I needed fruits and veggies. It was quire a balancing act at time. I learned to fix the carbs he needed and then fix a salad for me. I would eat with him, I would just eat a little differently from him.
I can see improvement each day. I call them "baby steps", the progress may be slower than what Matt thinks, but he has been through a lot. I am just thankful that he has made it through without any major complications. The things that we were going through were adjustments to a new normal. God has given us much grace and strength to get through all of this. I was writing a paper for the discussion board from my class "The Philosophy of Leadership", and one of the points of being a good leader is "Courage". I have always had a certain amount of courage, but until recently , I didn't know how much courage and strength I had and I am glad I don't look like what I have been through.
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