Some things still hurt.....
I know that we have to forgive and move on, but some things still hurt. I am not one to dwell on the past, but when those pictures were given to me on today. Some of it was painful. It was good to see all of the stuff that we had done as a radio station back in the 1980's and 1990's and then you wonder what do you do with all of that history. You can't live in the past you just keep moving ahead to the future. The future, the unknown...
In those pictures was an article called "25 years lived one day at a time". I wrote it for the Register Herald suppliment "Divine" It was published on my birthday January 31, 2003. I remember the day it came out my mom called me at work. It was a Friday, and my mom and dad listened to the radio in the mornings and she called, he came to pick me up from work and they talked about what a special article that was. The article is laid out too large for scanning so here it is.
October 6, 1977 was an important day for me. I started working at WJLS - my first job in broadcasting. I recently marked my 25th year at the radio station. Where did the time go? Twenty five years a quarter of a century.
Many changes have taken place since the day I climbed those steps to interview for a part time job at WJLS. WJLS as many stations did in those days played music on reccords and used turntables. We used cartridges to play commericals. Carts were something that resembled an 8 track tape, widely used in the 60's and 70's. We broadcasted sporting events and church services using phone line.
Things have changed a lot since then, music and commericals are played from computers. It takes longer to type in the information in the computer than it does to download the CD or the commerical into the computer.
When I started at WJLS, I was 19 years old. Some days I still feel like that 19 year old girl who walked into WJLS to convince Bill O'Brien to hire me to work weekends. Then reality hits when I look in the mirror. Where did the time go? I'm not 19 anymore, I don't look my age, but I am not 19. Hopefully I am wiser than I was back then. When I ponder my life there are things I would change and there are things I wouldn't change.
The things I would change, one is finishing college. While it is never too late to go back to school, it is harder when you are working and have bills to pay.. You are busy with your career and it is hard. I would be more aggressive about my career, I would take more risk and training, not be just content to have a job and be comfortable.
Things I wouldn't change is my relationship with God, my relationship with my parents, buying a home or marrying later in life. My relationship with God has tranformed me from a shy timid person, to a confident assured person. My parents have guided me and helped me to become an independant person. They made sacrifices for me and my sisters that others wouldn't have done. I don't drive because of my eyesight. During my tenure at WJLS they have driven me back and forth to work and to personal appearences. They are good examples of what parents should give their children---roots and wings.
Buying a home is one of the scariest things a person can do, as you sign all those mortage papers, it can be intimidating, but it is worth it. You have something that is yours and a slate that you can express yourself with.
I married at 41, which is long past the age when most people marry. You see pictures of beautiful young brides in magazines and wonder how their lives turned out. It was worth the wait. I met my husband at WJLS. It wasn't love at first sight. He had just come back from Desert Storm in 1991. We worked together for seven years and started talking. Our conversation was about our grandmothers. I soon realized that Matt was someone I felt comfortable with. I realize now that if I had married any sooner I would have messed up my life and someone else, because I was too immature to handle the responsibility of marriage.
No, 25 years is not a blur. It was lived one day at a time.
That was the article. I was 45. Now ten years later at 55. I can say this much, I still have lived one day at a time, some days have been better than others, my husband and I have survived lots of crises. Both of us lost our jobs, my mom passed away, I had some serious health issues. Three eye surgeries. God has been faithful through out all of this. At 55 you are at the age, where you don't have to prove a thing to anyone, now its proving things to yoursef. Things like you still have knowledge, common sense, which by the way isn't so common. You can still do a good job and work circles around people younger than you. Looking at ten years I did go back to college. I may be a year or less from my BS degree in business and accounting. It was funny when I entered college at 50, I had my mind set to doing one thing and as teachers got to know me, they steered me in the direction of business and accounting. I was on this path back in the early 80's... It is amazing how life comes full circle. Sometimes you move on and sometimes when you go back to where you started and see how things have changed, and it hurts.
In those pictures was an article called "25 years lived one day at a time". I wrote it for the Register Herald suppliment "Divine" It was published on my birthday January 31, 2003. I remember the day it came out my mom called me at work. It was a Friday, and my mom and dad listened to the radio in the mornings and she called, he came to pick me up from work and they talked about what a special article that was. The article is laid out too large for scanning so here it is.
October 6, 1977 was an important day for me. I started working at WJLS - my first job in broadcasting. I recently marked my 25th year at the radio station. Where did the time go? Twenty five years a quarter of a century.
Many changes have taken place since the day I climbed those steps to interview for a part time job at WJLS. WJLS as many stations did in those days played music on reccords and used turntables. We used cartridges to play commericals. Carts were something that resembled an 8 track tape, widely used in the 60's and 70's. We broadcasted sporting events and church services using phone line.
Things have changed a lot since then, music and commericals are played from computers. It takes longer to type in the information in the computer than it does to download the CD or the commerical into the computer.
When I started at WJLS, I was 19 years old. Some days I still feel like that 19 year old girl who walked into WJLS to convince Bill O'Brien to hire me to work weekends. Then reality hits when I look in the mirror. Where did the time go? I'm not 19 anymore, I don't look my age, but I am not 19. Hopefully I am wiser than I was back then. When I ponder my life there are things I would change and there are things I wouldn't change.
The things I would change, one is finishing college. While it is never too late to go back to school, it is harder when you are working and have bills to pay.. You are busy with your career and it is hard. I would be more aggressive about my career, I would take more risk and training, not be just content to have a job and be comfortable.
Things I wouldn't change is my relationship with God, my relationship with my parents, buying a home or marrying later in life. My relationship with God has tranformed me from a shy timid person, to a confident assured person. My parents have guided me and helped me to become an independant person. They made sacrifices for me and my sisters that others wouldn't have done. I don't drive because of my eyesight. During my tenure at WJLS they have driven me back and forth to work and to personal appearences. They are good examples of what parents should give their children---roots and wings.
Buying a home is one of the scariest things a person can do, as you sign all those mortage papers, it can be intimidating, but it is worth it. You have something that is yours and a slate that you can express yourself with.
I married at 41, which is long past the age when most people marry. You see pictures of beautiful young brides in magazines and wonder how their lives turned out. It was worth the wait. I met my husband at WJLS. It wasn't love at first sight. He had just come back from Desert Storm in 1991. We worked together for seven years and started talking. Our conversation was about our grandmothers. I soon realized that Matt was someone I felt comfortable with. I realize now that if I had married any sooner I would have messed up my life and someone else, because I was too immature to handle the responsibility of marriage.
No, 25 years is not a blur. It was lived one day at a time.
That was the article. I was 45. Now ten years later at 55. I can say this much, I still have lived one day at a time, some days have been better than others, my husband and I have survived lots of crises. Both of us lost our jobs, my mom passed away, I had some serious health issues. Three eye surgeries. God has been faithful through out all of this. At 55 you are at the age, where you don't have to prove a thing to anyone, now its proving things to yoursef. Things like you still have knowledge, common sense, which by the way isn't so common. You can still do a good job and work circles around people younger than you. Looking at ten years I did go back to college. I may be a year or less from my BS degree in business and accounting. It was funny when I entered college at 50, I had my mind set to doing one thing and as teachers got to know me, they steered me in the direction of business and accounting. I was on this path back in the early 80's... It is amazing how life comes full circle. Sometimes you move on and sometimes when you go back to where you started and see how things have changed, and it hurts.
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